luni, 22 ianuarie 2018
EN: I miss the days when time was inexistent. When my life was not measured in hours, days and years, but in games, fun and amazement. One of my favorite entertainments was this machine that brought stories to life, before the TV and cartoons. My older brother knew how to use it, so we would team up and spend lovely evenings enjoying the fairytales.
Pentru copiii din ziua de azi mi se pare ca timpul a inceput sa capete sens, totul e o fuga si sunt si ei prinsi in jocul stupid pe care il joaca adultii grabiti, iar anii lor simpli si fara griji se pierd si lasa urme grele, ii maturizeaza prea repede, fara sa fie de fapt cazul. Ar trebui viata sa fie tot mai simpla, dar, culmea, ne apare tot mai complicata, pentru ca ne preocupam de lucruri fara sens: mai multi bani, case mai mari, vacante mai scumpe, jucarii mai performante, telefoane mai destepte! Pe mine m-au cam pierdut vremurile...
EN: I wish for Carol to enjoy the stresless childhood we had. So he could play in the street with his friends, to run in the forest, to get muddy, to build snowmen and everything to be easy. I don't remember being asked to decide about my life when I was young: what I want to eat, what I want to get dressed with...This things were by default decided by the adults and it was just fine. It is our responsability to be the measure for the young ones.
For the kids these days I think time became to meaningfull and they got caught in the adults' rush and stupid game and their simple and most beautiful years get wasted. They grow up to fast, without a real reason. Life should get more simple, but, ironically, it feels more and more complicated, because we are worried about false things: more money, bigger houses, more expensive holidays, smarter phones! These times feel kind of strange and confusing to me, to be honest...
duminică, 14 ianuarie 2018
joi, 11 ianuarie 2018
Anul care a trecut ne-a demonstrat curajul din noi si ne-a ajutat sa crestem: ca familie, ca echipa, ca persoane. Incepem incet sa ne acomodam cu viata in 3. Carol ne-a adus un dar pretios: bucuria neconditionata. Am invatat de la el sa fim perseverenti. Am invatat sa fim in permanenta miscare si schimbare: azi starea de fapt e asa, maine cine stie ce va fi. Am inteles ca avem resurse fizice si psihice mult mai puternice decat credeam.
Multumim 2017 si bine ai venit 2018!
Urmeaza anul Cainelui de pamant in horoscopul chinezesc si probabil va fi un an potrivit pentru inradacinare si infaptuire. Asteptam cu interes sa vedem ce vom realiza si ne bucuram de perspectiva provocarilor viitoare.
EN: New. Again. It's 2018, January, the beginning of the year and we start all over. Or we continue, depends on the perspective. We finished the year with lots of partys and celebrations: Christmas; Carol's birthday who turned one year old and received a cake for two; New Year's Eve, which we celebrated this year with dear friends (Carol partied until 00:30, so mummy enjoyed her first late evening in a long time); and then there where the three Johns to celebrate. It was a lot of fun, good food, walks, visits, memory sharing, plans, hopes and a feeling of novlety.
The year that went by proved us we are brave and helped us grow: as a family, as a team, as persons. We slowly start to get used to living as three. Carol brought us a precious gift: unconditional joy. We learned from him to be perseverent. We learned to keep moving and embrace change. We understood tat our physical and psychical resources are strong.
Thank you 2017 and welcome 2018!
Next is the year of the ground dog in the chinese horoscope and it will probably be a year of rooting and doing.
sâmbătă, 23 decembrie 2017
EN: Maybe the cold is here, maybe the forest is no longer green, but the feeling of wandering is still animating us. So, we took advantage of the modern facilities and took a trip on the highway from Sibiu to Deva.
EN: The citadelle is spectacular not by the building itself, but because of the position: from the steap hill the eye is delighted with a 360 degrees beautiful view. At the feet of the hill lays the city of Deva, then come the fields, villages, mountains and the sky.
EN: Although when we went up the citadelle was covered by fog, the view was still amazing and even if the air and the sun were not ideal for photographing, we still got some pretty memories to keep.
marți, 12 decembrie 2017
Anul acesta a fost inceputul maturitatii pentru mine si fiecare hop depasit m-a adus mai aproape de liniste si intelegere. Cu plans, cu impotrivire, cu nemultumire si depresie, dar toate sentimente pe care le constientiez si le tin in frau fara sa ma copleseasca.
Anul acesta ma simt norocoasa si savurez viata asa cum mi-am facut-o...si realizez ca e buna tare!
EN: I sometimes stop and wonder on the date (not the exact one, while I don't really check the calendar often) and the many months that went by. This year was like the first one for me and for us and time stopped and started again on the 27th December last year.Since thenit feels like each day was a full lifetime, measured through the eyes of a little baby that is turning into a chil and a man. It's amazing to watch the fast evolution and as tiring as it feels, I'm fascinated and delighted. Although for me it has been a hard time and I still fight fear of attachment, my selfish ego that wants to convince me that life will never be the same (it's true, but it's not necessarily bad), I enjoy every moment. Somehow I start to understand that we are living a great adventure and it's more and more fun. And I slowly find my rhythm and realize that before Carol I was wasting quite a lot of time doing usless things. Now I still have enough time to paint, to read, to take long baths, to walk and even since some weeks to lay in bed and daydream.
This year was the beginning of maturity for me and each obstacle conquered got me closer to peace and understanding. With crying, fighting, unhappiness and depresion, but all these are feelings that I embrace and keep under control.
This year I feel lucky and I enjoy the life I built...it's a good one!